It's about midnight and I've finally got you to fall asleep. I tried rocking, swinging, pacifying, air venting, running watering, patting, humming, even pleading and you still would not sleep. Finally I decided to fit you tightly into an undersized sling and you finally got to sleep. Why did I do all this? Well, I want you to go to sleep so that you can grow and develop. You know you grow more when you are asleep (So you better go to sleep when I ask you to once you become an adolescent). I was so tempted to let you cry it out but I thought better. You're too young to take advantage of me. Also, I better cherish these moments that you want me to hold you all day because you may hit a phase in which you are embarrassed to be seen next to me (though I'll try my darndest to be the cool dad - reference Doug's Dad on MTV's "the State"). So yes, I kept on trying until you fell asleep.
Why else? Because mommy is exhausted and I wanted to give her a break by trying to rock you to sleep. Mommy cares for you so much but she is pretty tired. When feeding doesn't go well, she may get frustrated but she loved you dearly. Lesson? We may get frustrated at times and, in our brokenness we may react poorly, but know that we love you and will continue to do what we need to because we love you.
Sleep tight, Lucas!
BTW...It was very difficult to take this picture by myself without waking the baby or mommy...thus, it's a little out of focus...my bad...
